What if I have it all backwards?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.  ~ Marianne Williamson

Sometimes I feel so lost in the big picture.  I forget that the whole is made up of lots of parts.  Even those parts are made up of smaller ones.  But it becomes overwhelming and frustrating to become so blinded by the the great light shining there so brilliantly.  The point is that there is a great light shining there so brilliantly.

Faith is something that doesn’t always come so easily.  I want it all, and I wonder why I don’t have it yet.  On the one hand, I look at the past few years and see so many things that have slipped right through my fingers without so much as a remotely understandable explanation.  Yet other things have seemed to work just perfectly.

I usually run around thinking I need to step back and look at the bigger picture.  Maybe in doing so, I think to myself, I’ll regain perspective I’ve lost by attending to all the little details.  What if I have it all backwards?  If I allow myself the confidence to manifest the greatness that exists in me by design, then I automatically gain the faith that I am attending to all that I need to in this moment.  The brilliant light I’m generating exists regardless, but can only shine if I accept and channel the awesome power I possess.

It also seems that I get these flashes of inspiration precisely when I need them.  I’ve been despondent over what I perceive as a general failure to “get it.”  I escaped over lunch to my TiVo and the recording of the movie Akeelah and the Bee it caught for me.  This movie is about sooooo much more than a spelling bee.  If you have not seen it, you must!  The opening quote of this post is from the movie.

Don’t be afraid of you. Rock whatever dream you have.  Rock it hard, and let it make you great!